Mother's day

I know I'm a little late in writing about Mother's day, but that's pretty normal for me lol. I am kinda annoyed though, I actually had a nice post all writen out, all the pictures added and I posted it, only to come back here today to find it gone, all gone, all the changes that I made to the lay out, gone. Soooo annoying, but oh well, what are you gonna do right?

So, Mother's day... It was awesome this year. The weather was supper nice, not really hot, just nice enough that you could sit outside in your shirt sleeves and not get cold. The sun was out there was a nice breeze, it was great.

T* woke me up at about 8am to give me the little flower pot she had decorated at school complete with paper flowers with her picture on them, and the card that she made for me:

I LOVE my age, not really crazy about my dress size, but I choose to think of it as my waist size instead (it says 21 if you can't see it). The best part about my name, is that the day T* was writing it out there was an open house at her school so I was in her classroom. T* actually asked me how to spell my name, "for no reason" (as she said) and yet she still didn't get it right lol! I love it though. I had such a great laugh when I woke up and read this (I waited for T* to leave the room before I laughed), what a grate way to wake up on Mother's day! R* got me a G.C so that I can get my hair cut, which is awesome! I haven't gotten a trim in 2 years, and though I keep talking about it I always find other things I would rather spend my money on. So I am excited to go get that done, and see guys DO listen (sometimes) lol. R* also got me a Timmies breakfast sandwich and a coffee, mmm love my coffee!

After lunch T* and I had a birthday party to go to, I know what you're thinking, "who has a birthday party on Mother's day?" It was actually really nice. My friend had booked everything and made up invitations and had everything ready before she realized it was Mother's day. Honestly it was great though. T* and I got to go out for a bit, she got to play while I had some adult conversation with the other moms that were there. We totally enjoyed ourselves! After the party was over T* and I went over to the birthday girls house to hang out in the sun for a few hours and let the kids play some more.

When we got home we had some other family over, so it was nice to see everyone, a couple that we hadn't seen in a while. There was more good conversation and even some cake!

At the end of the day we had some very cute little visitors to the house:

We have a family of rabbits that live in our front yard that we get to see every year. This year the first sighting was on Mother's day, not only did we get to see the mommy but.... We got to see one of her babies too. Isn't it cute! I love seeing them every year, they are so tiny at first and we get to watch them grow. They weren't our only visitors either
It's hard to see but the robin has a worm in her mouth, you could tell that she was taking it home to her nest for her babies. It was Mother's day for everyone!!

Hope everyone out there had a Mother's day as nice as mine!

Perfect mom

I love my daughter, more than anything in the world, but there are days when she really tries my patience. I try my best to remain calm, not to raise my voice and to allow her to have a certain amount of freedom. I always try and speak to her the same way I would talk to anyone else, to answer any of her questions in a way that she can understand, to always let her know the reason behind why I say no sometimes. Still there are times when I just can't help it, she'd pushed me right to my limit and I get angry and louder, I send her to her room and she ends up in tears. After a few minutes when I have calmed down I go and try and explain why I was upset, give her a hug and we move on. I'm constantly worrying that I'm doing it all wrong, that I should be able to stay calm, that I should be more understanding. I worry that I get upset too much, that I'm not spending enough time with her, that I'm not giving her all that things that she needs, that I'm not raising her properly. You watch t.v shows that show the parents in such a light, they seem to have it all figured out, everyone is happy, when something bad happens they all come together and everyone is fine (which is why I think I enjoyed Jon and Kate plus 8 so much, they seemed so normal). Then of course you watch your friends with their kids, or see other mothers at the school or park. It seems like there are so many that never raise their voices, they are always calm and relaxed, never stressed, it seems like they never have any problems to deal with in their families. It always makes me feel inadequate, I always look at them and think 'why can't I be more like that?' I look at them and it seems like they have this perfect relationship with their children, they never seem to get upset. It all looks so perfect. I end up being jealous of their calmness, their patience and feeling even worse about the times when I get upset with my daughter. I start to really worry that I'm doing it wrong.
I have one such friend, it seemed like whenever we were together she was always so put together and calm, it was like she had the patience of an angel, like nothing ever got to her at all. Then one day she looked at me and said "You're always so good with your daughter, always calm and put together". I was totally shocked!!! Here I had been thinking that she was this perfect mom and she felt the same way about me! We got to talking about it and realized that we both went through the same things, that we had the same worries and fears. We both lost our patience at times and wanted to rip our hair out, we both raised our voices at times, but we were also both trying our best. It was a major eye opener for me, and it made me feel soo much better about the kind of mother I am.
I realized that those 'perfect' moms that I saw out with their 'perfect' kids were probably just like me. I only saw them sometimes, and it was always out somewhere. I didn't spend hours with them anywhere, I didn't know what happened after they left, I didn't see the tantrums that their kids threw when they were told no. I realized that I can't judge the perfect mom based on a few hours over a few months, I had no idea what things were like the rest of the time.
So remember, the next time you're out and feeling that you're doing it all wrong and you're the worst parent out there. The next time you look at that other mom and think she's got it all together and her life and kids are perfect, she just might be looking at you and thinking the same thing!!
Now if you will excuse me I am going to go hug my daughter :)