Tuesday, January 19, 2010
I'm not sure what it is, maybe the weather, maybe the after Christmas blahs. Lately I just feel really out of it and rather down. I try not to, I look on the bright side as much as I can, it just seems so hard sometimes. I have had problems with depression in the past but ever since I got pregnant with T* it has pretty much just stayed away. Now it seems like it's coming back at times. I really don't want that, it's not something that I want to go through again. I really feel for all those out there that have depression, I know what it feels like to feel that you just want to be gone and have it all over with. I know that everyone experience sadness at times, but it's a totally different feeling to be depressed. It's like you are drowning in your own mind, if feels like you could stand in a room full of people that you know and still be totally alone. It's not something that you want to feel, but it's hard to get over it. I don't think I have hit the lows that I used to, now I am able to pull myself out of it after a little bit of time, I am so thankful for T* and R*, as well as my really close friends, the ones that I can turn to with anything, if it wasn't for them this would be a lot harder. I hope that with the warmer weather, hopefully soon to come, things will look up again. Remember, call those people that are close to you just to chat, call that friend who seemed a little down the other day, just having someone to talk to for a little while makes all the difference!