Procrastination

It seems as if it is something that runs in my family. Is it possible that there is a genetic glitch that causes my family to be like this?? Who knows but it's nice to think that there is someone or something else to blame for being a procrastinator. No matter what it is I seem to be bent on waiting till the last possible minute to do it. I don't know why, and I don't do it for everything all the time. I do procrastinate enough that it cause me problems. Which is funny, you would think that if I could make things easier for myself, I would sit my arse down and get it done, but you would be wrong.... Even now I am procrastinating, just by writing this, I know there are things around the house that need to be done, but instead I am sitting here writing in my blog. I'm not even really writing about anything interesting........ Ahh well, never do today what you can put off till tomorrow....... Maybe one day I will just get down to it and get things done..... Maybe I'll start today..... nahh it can wait till tomorrow.......

Feeling.....lost

I'm not sure what it is, maybe the weather, maybe the after Christmas blahs. Lately I just feel really out of it and rather down. I try not to, I look on the bright side as much as I can, it just seems so hard sometimes. I have had problems with depression in the past but ever since I got pregnant with T* it has pretty much just stayed away. Now it seems like it's coming back at times. I really don't want that, it's not something that I want to go through again. I really feel for all those out there that have depression, I know what it feels like to feel that you just want to be gone and have it all over with. I know that everyone experience sadness at times, but it's a totally different feeling to be depressed. It's like you are drowning in your own mind, if feels like you could stand in a room full of people that you know and still be totally alone. It's not something that you want to feel, but it's hard to get over it. I don't think I have hit the lows that I used to, now I am able to pull myself out of it after a little bit of time, I am so thankful for T* and R*, as well as my really close friends, the ones that I can turn to with anything, if it wasn't for them this would be a lot harder. I hope that with the warmer weather, hopefully soon to come, things will look up again. Remember, call those people that are close to you just to chat, call that friend who seemed a little down the other day, just having someone to talk to for a little while makes all the difference!

Holidays are over

The holidays are finished, T* had her first day back to school today. It's so cute how much she enjoys school. When she got up this morning she told me that she hadn't been able to sleep, she kept waking up every hour, it was soo funny the way she said it. She's very happy to be back at school with all her friends, although all I have gotten since I picked her up after is nasty attitude. I'd like to say it's just cause she's tired but I don't think that's the case, she's been getting pretty lippy lately (well, she always has been but lately it's a bit more). I'm not sure if she is just going through a phase or what is going on. I haven't been able to figure out how to get her out of the attitude. I'm not really sure what to do about it. I wish there was just a button to push that would make her my sweet little girl all the time. I am sooo not looking forward to the teen years when I never get to see the sweet girl anymore. I am hoping that she wont be that bad. I want to have the kind of relationship with her where I feel a part of her life, a part that she is happy with. Who knows right, maybe she will be a great teen, maybe she is getting it all out of her system now... I can only hope.
After school T* had her first ballet class after the holidays, so it was a pretty busy day after 2 weeks of mainly relaxing. She enjoyed ballet as well. I love watching them, they look so cute in their little leotards. They are going to be in 2 productions this term, so that will be fun to see. I love being able to see real progress from T*, having something I can look at that shows me how far she has come.
I'm still home till I find a new job, unless I can finally find something that I can do at home, that's my dream. I would love to be able to work at home, never have to worry about going somewhere else to work, it would be great!! I have got a head cold now so it's not all that great. I hope it's gone soon, I hate being sick, nooo fun!

Happy 2010!!

I can't believe that's it's already 2010, it seems like it was just the beginning of 2009 last week. This last year has gone by sooo fast! It wasn't too bad of a year, it was alright. There were a few things that happened that I wish hadn't but over all it was pretty good. I'm looking forward to making this year even better. So many things that I would like to be able to get done this year and I hope I can do it! I didn't really make any resolutions, just have things in my mind that I want to do this year. I find that no matter what if you try and make resolutions they never seem to happen, you just never seem to get any of them done, but if you just have the idea of somethings, and don't try and force it you will accomplish a lot more.
We had a pretty good New Year's Eve. The 3 of us went over to some a friends house. The kiddies were all up insanely late, it was pretty crazy, but I figure it only happens once a year, they got to ring in the New Year with us and they had a great time. It was nice to just hang out, have a couple drinks and talk. I think I enjoy that more than I do going to a great big party. Usually if we go out we only go to a house party anyways which is a lot nicer than going to a club, at least that's how I feel anyways. All in all a good night! I hope you all had a great New Years as well. All the best in the coming year!!!

New Author:
Shanna Swendson: She writes these books that I kind of call a bit Harry Potter, but for the older crowd. They have romance, and a bit of suspense, a bit of humor. I'm totally enjoying the series, although I haven't read the first one, they haven't got it at the library here so I haven't found it yet. I have read the other 3 though, I totally enjoy them, a very good read.